The dreary long nights and days has been keeping me awfully restless ,the point being i have nothing to do as I'm still figuring out some of the crucial matters in my life.....i must have have told you in the last post that i bade fare thee well to beloved Delhi and headed to Poona.....well, i should say that some things there did not quite work out for me there and yes I'm back to the capital with a bang......
I cannot yet figure out what it is about Delhi that i love so much when there is so much to hate about it.....i still remember 6 yrs back when i landed in the capital for my higher schooling ,as i headed to the cab and drove across chanakyapuri ,i had a feeling deep down in my heart that perhaps some day i would have a place of my own here.......well, i still survive on my dads money so a place of my own would perhaps take some more years.
Coming back to the awfully restless days has really lead out to some serious soul searching which i needed so much in my life and I'm happy some things now seem much less blurry as compared to before and some things Ive just decided to just let it be and time will guide me so the next thing on the agenda is definitely making the most out of my present and not having to live with bitter regrets later.
So, this other day as i stood on the terrace with my friends around midnight talking about various things starting from my experiences in Poona ,the conversation lead to which is the best place in our country to stay. i fiddled with mumbai and Delhi........let me say Ive never been to mumbai but Ive always wanted to go there for as long as i can remember...in the end i said Delhi and why not, didn't i always wanted to have a place of my own here and work here and indulge in the endless freedom that the city offers and not bother about what your next door neighbour is upto or just walk around in Jammie's not having to bother how i look like or just lie around crumpled in sheets for a long time just delving in my thoughts and i could give you more reasons....
Let me say i love my hometown dearly but the idea of having to settle and work there just seems so hard to think of.....and that's exactly what i always thought of....but as i stood in the terrace that night and pondered about a lot of things i began to think about how and when did i began to thrust myself in the delhite circle so much that home just seemed like a vague idea.
Its true i love the capital so much but is the love so deep that i would rather choose 'it' than my own hometown? its also true that the hometown has some disappointments but are these disappointments so influential in my life that i could replace it with something else? above all is replacement so easy?
i am thankful to Delhi that its made an important part of what i am today and i absolutely adore all the good and unpredictable things the city has to offer but in between all the beautiful things Ive also come to realize that home is home and no matter how many flaws come with it, its just irreplaceable.
Its a place where parents and grandparents along with all the angel aunts and bitchy aunts coexist to make a family always present in moments of joy and sadness.
And the most important of all the lush mountains , the crystal clear skies, the pristine waterfalls, all those innocent faces ,the nooks and corners which we are all so familiarized with will always be the most important source of inspiration that has largely summed up the most important things in my life
The vague memories of my childhood spent with my late great grandma ,sitting on that particular guava tree while munching a ripe guava and imagining the life of butterflies and delving into the thoughts of what lay beyond the hills or the pre-adolescent days encountering a beautiful rainbow and fabricating a story in my head and then narrating it to the sister saying that its a plot of the movie i just watched and the long drives from Gangtok to Tashiding across lush mountains imagining uncountable things till the day it inspired me to drive miles and miles in another city in order to become a successful and experienced human being .
Living in Delhi for almost six yrs now and embracing new things along while discovering new dimensions has been great in its own way and even though it would be awesome to someday have my own place here in this city but my hometown is definitely the one place on earth that i would like to eventually settle down and build my safe abode.
cheers to home
pirooo aloo dum with tingmo
lil innocent one
blissful days....................
I cannot yet figure out what it is about Delhi that i love so much when there is so much to hate about it.....i still remember 6 yrs back when i landed in the capital for my higher schooling ,as i headed to the cab and drove across chanakyapuri ,i had a feeling deep down in my heart that perhaps some day i would have a place of my own here.......well, i still survive on my dads money so a place of my own would perhaps take some more years.
Coming back to the awfully restless days has really lead out to some serious soul searching which i needed so much in my life and I'm happy some things now seem much less blurry as compared to before and some things Ive just decided to just let it be and time will guide me so the next thing on the agenda is definitely making the most out of my present and not having to live with bitter regrets later.
So, this other day as i stood on the terrace with my friends around midnight talking about various things starting from my experiences in Poona ,the conversation lead to which is the best place in our country to stay. i fiddled with mumbai and Delhi........let me say Ive never been to mumbai but Ive always wanted to go there for as long as i can remember...in the end i said Delhi and why not, didn't i always wanted to have a place of my own here and work here and indulge in the endless freedom that the city offers and not bother about what your next door neighbour is upto or just walk around in Jammie's not having to bother how i look like or just lie around crumpled in sheets for a long time just delving in my thoughts and i could give you more reasons....
Let me say i love my hometown dearly but the idea of having to settle and work there just seems so hard to think of.....and that's exactly what i always thought of....but as i stood in the terrace that night and pondered about a lot of things i began to think about how and when did i began to thrust myself in the delhite circle so much that home just seemed like a vague idea.
Its true i love the capital so much but is the love so deep that i would rather choose 'it' than my own hometown? its also true that the hometown has some disappointments but are these disappointments so influential in my life that i could replace it with something else? above all is replacement so easy?
i am thankful to Delhi that its made an important part of what i am today and i absolutely adore all the good and unpredictable things the city has to offer but in between all the beautiful things Ive also come to realize that home is home and no matter how many flaws come with it, its just irreplaceable.
Its a place where parents and grandparents along with all the angel aunts and bitchy aunts coexist to make a family always present in moments of joy and sadness.
And the most important of all the lush mountains , the crystal clear skies, the pristine waterfalls, all those innocent faces ,the nooks and corners which we are all so familiarized with will always be the most important source of inspiration that has largely summed up the most important things in my life
The vague memories of my childhood spent with my late great grandma ,sitting on that particular guava tree while munching a ripe guava and imagining the life of butterflies and delving into the thoughts of what lay beyond the hills or the pre-adolescent days encountering a beautiful rainbow and fabricating a story in my head and then narrating it to the sister saying that its a plot of the movie i just watched and the long drives from Gangtok to Tashiding across lush mountains imagining uncountable things till the day it inspired me to drive miles and miles in another city in order to become a successful and experienced human being .
Living in Delhi for almost six yrs now and embracing new things along while discovering new dimensions has been great in its own way and even though it would be awesome to someday have my own place here in this city but my hometown is definitely the one place on earth that i would like to eventually settle down and build my safe abode.
cheers to home
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